Rainy Days and Mental Haze
This past week I asked my friend Arvind to share his story of meeting God through our group this past week and this is what he shared:
Last week when I came to Saturday morning group I was feeling very tired because it had been a long and busy week. While everyone in the group was going around and sharing how they were I just felt really numb like I felt like I couldn’t really process my feelings because I am not feeling anything right now. So after a while when Dan had asked me hey how you doing I’m not sure because right now I just feel numb like I’m unable to feel and I don’t know what’s going on. So then the group leaned in to help me process through what I was feeling and as we prayed a little bit and talked through it then I started to experience what I was feeling.
I am just flooded and I just feel overwhelmed right now and I had been holding that in. I was holding in some things that happened at work, some transitions with my team which meant that there was more additional work and no other people to do it, and also I had assignments coming up at school. So I was kind of unpacking all of this and as I started to go into it I was feeling like gosh there’s just not enough hours in the day to do all the things that I need to do it. I just felt like maybe I made the wrong decision and shouldn’t of taken this job or maybe I shouldn’t have taken up the school program that I’m a part of and so on. I didn’t know quite how it’s all going to work and even now I don’t know how I can hold all this or where to start.
Someone in the group I think it might’ve been Dan or Dave asked me out of everything what is the one thing that feels the most overwhelming is there one thing. So I prayed about that then I realized actually you know everything feels overwhelming but specifically at school I have this requirement to do this internship I have to meet a requirement of 100 hours and I know I’m short of that by about 30 hours or so and I’ve been trying to come up with all these last-minute plans to fulfill that requirement. I could do this I could do that and try and cram a bunch of things in to meet this requirement. That’s the thing of everything that’s most overwhelming.
So then as I have that then the group processed through OK if that’s the most overwhelming thing what is it that God is saying specifically to that and I felt that, what the Lord, was inviting me to is counter to everything I was trying to do and making my plans to meet the hours requirement. The Lord was really inviting me to rest. So the group said OK what does it look like? I said well it looks like in a me going on a solitary retreat this weekend but then of course I didn’t have time because it’s just so many things that I am trying to do and process at the moment. So, they said set everything else aside, when can were you going to go and do this retreat? I said well maybe Sunday at the park. But then they looked at the weather forecast and they said well you know it looks like it’s going to rain tomorrow so that means Sunday is out so it has to be Saturday, today.So then I started to think through my plans for today and while I thought I had a really full day but I could renegotiate a couple family commitments. So what ended up happening was I came home at 8:30 and I quickly asked my family if we could move our plans to tomorrow so I can take care of this today and everyone was OK with that. In fact, one of the things I was doing was for my parents and when I asked them if we could reschedule they said they were so glad that I decided not to do that today as it was feeling really overwhelming for them and they’d like to do it tomorrow instead of today.
So I ended up taking about 6 to 7 hours. I went to the park, had my Bible, I read I prayed. I took some time to rest and by the time I came back, I mean the feeling of being overwhelmed with gone. I mean there are still things going on at work and so on but this one thing that has been the most overwhelming and so being able to have other speaking in to that and actually hear from the Lord how I need it to actually rest instead of trying to do more. and end and then finally when I went before my professor, I mean, she was fine with my work even though I hadn’t quite met the requirements of the internship and everything worked out fine and I’m so grateful that I had others to talk to and pray with to find what God had for me.
Arvind had so much to do he was overwhelmed. Instead of trying to figure out how to do all his tasks he slowed down and asked God what to do through others. God not only showed him what to do but when to do it and what not to do so that he could do what God showed him to do. It worked out even better than expected for his family and as Arvind took time to meet with God he was completely met and overwhelmed with peace even though all his work and didn't get finished. He even found out from his teacher that the work he'd done was enough! If we ask and listen to God for not just what but how and when, He wants to guide us and be with us every step. We just need to slow down and let him guide and not insist that we know best.
In their hearts humans plan their course,
but the Lord establishes their steps.
Proverbs 16:9
Last week when I came to Saturday morning group I was feeling very tired because it had been a long and busy week. While everyone in the group was going around and sharing how they were I just felt really numb like I felt like I couldn’t really process my feelings because I am not feeling anything right now. So after a while when Dan had asked me hey how you doing I’m not sure because right now I just feel numb like I’m unable to feel and I don’t know what’s going on. So then the group leaned in to help me process through what I was feeling and as we prayed a little bit and talked through it then I started to experience what I was feeling.
I am just flooded and I just feel overwhelmed right now and I had been holding that in. I was holding in some things that happened at work, some transitions with my team which meant that there was more additional work and no other people to do it, and also I had assignments coming up at school. So I was kind of unpacking all of this and as I started to go into it I was feeling like gosh there’s just not enough hours in the day to do all the things that I need to do it. I just felt like maybe I made the wrong decision and shouldn’t of taken this job or maybe I shouldn’t have taken up the school program that I’m a part of and so on. I didn’t know quite how it’s all going to work and even now I don’t know how I can hold all this or where to start.
Someone in the group I think it might’ve been Dan or Dave asked me out of everything what is the one thing that feels the most overwhelming is there one thing. So I prayed about that then I realized actually you know everything feels overwhelming but specifically at school I have this requirement to do this internship I have to meet a requirement of 100 hours and I know I’m short of that by about 30 hours or so and I’ve been trying to come up with all these last-minute plans to fulfill that requirement. I could do this I could do that and try and cram a bunch of things in to meet this requirement. That’s the thing of everything that’s most overwhelming.
So then as I have that then the group processed through OK if that’s the most overwhelming thing what is it that God is saying specifically to that and I felt that, what the Lord, was inviting me to is counter to everything I was trying to do and making my plans to meet the hours requirement. The Lord was really inviting me to rest. So the group said OK what does it look like? I said well it looks like in a me going on a solitary retreat this weekend but then of course I didn’t have time because it’s just so many things that I am trying to do and process at the moment. So, they said set everything else aside, when can were you going to go and do this retreat? I said well maybe Sunday at the park. But then they looked at the weather forecast and they said well you know it looks like it’s going to rain tomorrow so that means Sunday is out so it has to be Saturday, today.So then I started to think through my plans for today and while I thought I had a really full day but I could renegotiate a couple family commitments. So what ended up happening was I came home at 8:30 and I quickly asked my family if we could move our plans to tomorrow so I can take care of this today and everyone was OK with that. In fact, one of the things I was doing was for my parents and when I asked them if we could reschedule they said they were so glad that I decided not to do that today as it was feeling really overwhelming for them and they’d like to do it tomorrow instead of today.
So I ended up taking about 6 to 7 hours. I went to the park, had my Bible, I read I prayed. I took some time to rest and by the time I came back, I mean the feeling of being overwhelmed with gone. I mean there are still things going on at work and so on but this one thing that has been the most overwhelming and so being able to have other speaking in to that and actually hear from the Lord how I need it to actually rest instead of trying to do more. and end and then finally when I went before my professor, I mean, she was fine with my work even though I hadn’t quite met the requirements of the internship and everything worked out fine and I’m so grateful that I had others to talk to and pray with to find what God had for me.
Arvind had so much to do he was overwhelmed. Instead of trying to figure out how to do all his tasks he slowed down and asked God what to do through others. God not only showed him what to do but when to do it and what not to do so that he could do what God showed him to do. It worked out even better than expected for his family and as Arvind took time to meet with God he was completely met and overwhelmed with peace even though all his work and didn't get finished. He even found out from his teacher that the work he'd done was enough! If we ask and listen to God for not just what but how and when, He wants to guide us and be with us every step. We just need to slow down and let him guide and not insist that we know best.
In their hearts humans plan their course,
but the Lord establishes their steps.
Proverbs 16:9
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